Well, I am all too aware of the fact it's been a while since I last posted. There are no really good excuses, I have had some up and down health issues but things are starting to piece back together. Mentally I don't think I was ready. No more excuses.
I began the diet on 6th November and had my first weigh in on 9th November, I wasn't expecting to have lost very much but 5lbs down is a great result. This has really spurred me on and I am sat nursing a leek and potato soup in a mug as I type this.
Recently I had found myself getting bored of food, bored of eating the same type of thing all the time, and sick to the back teeth of spending more time in the toilet than with my family. I know my eating habits need to change because they are affecting my health and my ability to live a normal life.
The soup on the plan isn't that bad actually, it obviously doesn't have great big chunks of veg in it but it does have a nice flavour, it isn't a bad texture and it is a good enough portion size to really make you feel like you've had a good meal.
A big trigger for me this time around was during a day out at Legoland with my amazing kids, I was worried at each ride that I would have to do "the walk of shame" and that they'd tell me bluntly that I wouldn't fit so please don't bother. There were many rides that I simply didn't chance because it's hard enough to accept myself as I am right now without others laughing at me. I did however go on the water rapids, and the log flume (was a tight squeeze, I must admit). Overall we had a fantastic day out, we spent a lot of money on the pictures of us all on the rides. Looking at them I don't recognise myself, I didn't look like me, I just looked so different with my features merging into my fat shape. I made a vow that the next time we go to a theme park, I am not going to be that mother that has to sit on the outside looking in because she is too fat to get involved. I am going to be that mother that confidently queues with excitement for rides, not fearing the walk of shame. Family pictures with the woman my husband married looking like the woman he actually married.
So there we have it, I have bared my soul to the internet. I started the week weighing 20st1. I weighed 19st10 yesterday and I am very much looking forward to weighing even less than that on Saturday!
When I feel like I need to eat, I am going to repeat this little mantra "This too shall pass". I know I can do this.
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